it would be complete irony if i said that the hardest part of sobriety is change, but i think people are accustomed to structure and when things change it puts us in a little tizzy. i'm a pretty laid back gal, but sometimes unexpected change throws me off. i get used to the way things are and i begin to like it.
something that hasn't changed in my husband's recovery is his happiness with no-plans. he likes to fly by the seat of his pants. IF there is a plan, he doesn't like to follow it. even if HE'S the one who made the plan! i haven't decided if this is just the way he is... or the way he's adapted to life... of just his way of aggravating life (especially for me, because i love plans and schedules)! he likes to CHANGE things up...
i'm happy that he's changing. but i hope that especially the drug court program helps him ok his life with plans. -that was a weird way of saying it, but i'd like one of the changes in life that results from recovery is that he can start living by plans if plans are existent. it's not that i think we need a plan for every day or a schedule for every second (although i don't think it'd be horrible), it'd just be nice to make a plan for a day and be able to stick to it without a fight. i don't even really mind veering from plans every once in a while because we can't predict the future and we can't control all of life's circumstances... but i would like to have a planned out day go as scheduled. especially for our family. every once in a while.
i'm not trying to pick on him. i know he's not perfect. i'm just letting out a little "change vent"...
i love my husband. i think he's great.
something that hasn't changed in my husband's recovery is his happiness with no-plans. he likes to fly by the seat of his pants. IF there is a plan, he doesn't like to follow it. even if HE'S the one who made the plan! i haven't decided if this is just the way he is... or the way he's adapted to life... of just his way of aggravating life (especially for me, because i love plans and schedules)! he likes to CHANGE things up...
i'm happy that he's changing. but i hope that especially the drug court program helps him ok his life with plans. -that was a weird way of saying it, but i'd like one of the changes in life that results from recovery is that he can start living by plans if plans are existent. it's not that i think we need a plan for every day or a schedule for every second (although i don't think it'd be horrible), it'd just be nice to make a plan for a day and be able to stick to it without a fight. i don't even really mind veering from plans every once in a while because we can't predict the future and we can't control all of life's circumstances... but i would like to have a planned out day go as scheduled. especially for our family. every once in a while.
i'm not trying to pick on him. i know he's not perfect. i'm just letting out a little "change vent"...
i love my husband. i think he's great.
you and me sista! have we ever talked about liking things planned out? i'd don't really recall, but i'd be surprised if it hasn't come up. it drives me crazy when there isn't even a slightly small plan (cough cough...like some things that go on at the lake). really, though, i don't think your wishing for something bad. and you're right, he is great!
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