so, we have this friend. he used to be a bad guy, but then he was sent to prison... there he changed. since then he's been rebuilding his life. he found a great gal who is as sweet and pure as they get. he's been sober for about 3 years now and he's been a great support for me and my man as we've entered this new life. he doesn't live close to us, but he and my hubby talk every day. they're great friends... best friends.
anyway, we got a call from his girlfriend on christmas day-after. she didn't know where he was. and he'd been acting strange. and she was concerned he was cheating on her. he was not coming home at night. only coming home to shower and then leave again. we wasn't answering her calls. he was lying about where he'd been. he was emotional and sorry and then the next minute in a fit of rage. he has torn up their house and put some holes in the walls...
i, personally, am heart sick. i'm so extremely sympathetic and sorry for his lady. i know EXACTLY how she feels. really. i am sick to my stomach with sadness that he's doing this to himself (again) and to her and her daughter. she called me today... she just doesn't know what to do. she doesn't know why. she also doesn't have anyone to talk to about it. my heart is completely broken for her. all alone. without a clue. *sigh*
i'm sad for him. i'm so sad he's doing this, like i said before. but i'm also sad for my husband. it's his best friend. and he knows that he can't be around him. he can't help him. he can't support him. because he's too new into sobriety, he knows he's not strong enough. he wants to do all of that and to be a friend to him... but that's the most painful part. he knows he can't. he's lost his best friend. and this time, maybe for the first time in his life, it wasn't his own fault.
i'm praying for our friend. every single day. i'm also praying for his girl. i can't do anything else. but man, i'm praying so hard. i KNOW that the only way this can straighten itself out... the only way he can sober back up... would be a complete and most obvious miracle. and the only one capable of that is God. i know that he -on the inside- is a great guy. i know he wants sobriety. i know he loves his girlfriend. i know he wants to marry her and have a family with her. i know all these things... but i also know he's an addict. and right now he's not him, the addict is him. the good news is i know God. and He can do it for him. He can make a complete and most obvious miracle. so, i'm praying and i'm not losing hope for him. would you please join me in prayer and hope?
anyway, we got a call from his girlfriend on christmas day-after. she didn't know where he was. and he'd been acting strange. and she was concerned he was cheating on her. he was not coming home at night. only coming home to shower and then leave again. we wasn't answering her calls. he was lying about where he'd been. he was emotional and sorry and then the next minute in a fit of rage. he has torn up their house and put some holes in the walls...
i, personally, am heart sick. i'm so extremely sympathetic and sorry for his lady. i know EXACTLY how she feels. really. i am sick to my stomach with sadness that he's doing this to himself (again) and to her and her daughter. she called me today... she just doesn't know what to do. she doesn't know why. she also doesn't have anyone to talk to about it. my heart is completely broken for her. all alone. without a clue. *sigh*
i'm sad for him. i'm so sad he's doing this, like i said before. but i'm also sad for my husband. it's his best friend. and he knows that he can't be around him. he can't help him. he can't support him. because he's too new into sobriety, he knows he's not strong enough. he wants to do all of that and to be a friend to him... but that's the most painful part. he knows he can't. he's lost his best friend. and this time, maybe for the first time in his life, it wasn't his own fault.
i'm praying for our friend. every single day. i'm also praying for his girl. i can't do anything else. but man, i'm praying so hard. i KNOW that the only way this can straighten itself out... the only way he can sober back up... would be a complete and most obvious miracle. and the only one capable of that is God. i know that he -on the inside- is a great guy. i know he wants sobriety. i know he loves his girlfriend. i know he wants to marry her and have a family with her. i know all these things... but i also know he's an addict. and right now he's not him, the addict is him. the good news is i know God. and He can do it for him. He can make a complete and most obvious miracle. so, i'm praying and i'm not losing hope for him. would you please join me in prayer and hope?
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