this is a question that i asked myself a hundred times a day after i first found out the truth: my husband was using drugs.
other questions that were going through my head: are you stupid? what have you got yourself into? what in the world are you going to do now? how are you going to support five kids as a stay-at-home mom? what are you going to tell the kids? what are you going to tell everyone else? how in the heck is this possibly happening to you?! and then again: how could you have not known?!
short answer: naivety. i have always been naive. hopefully this shakes a little of it out of me!
other answers:
other questions that were going through my head: are you stupid? what have you got yourself into? what in the world are you going to do now? how are you going to support five kids as a stay-at-home mom? what are you going to tell the kids? what are you going to tell everyone else? how in the heck is this possibly happening to you?! and then again: how could you have not known?!
short answer: naivety. i have always been naive. hopefully this shakes a little of it out of me!
other answers:
- i trusted him. i love my husband and i trust easily. it wasn't hard at all for me to trust the man i love!
- i've never been around drugs. i had no idea what obvious signs were flashing in front of me because i knew nothing about those drugs!
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ReplyDeletei hope you don't beat yourself up too much about this. remember you aren't the only one that didn't know. and maybe, all those reasons for not knowing, is a good thing. like, it's a good thing that you've never been around drugs. it's a good thing to trust...as you easily trust, you are easily trusted. i don't think naivety is bad. i've always thought my mom is super naive...she won't even read twilight! but, it's something i seriously admire about her. she has no need to be apart of things of the world. even if its just movies, or music. so all these things i think are some of your strong points.
ReplyDeleteAlso, dear lady, addicts are very GOOD (at least for a while) at HIDING their behaviors. You weren't SUPPOSED to know. Not that that makes you feel better. But it's the nature of it. :( You are NOT stupid. Love, MamaH
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